My First Real Girlfriend

She is my first real girlfriend
She crossed all boundaries of my expectations
She was once my best friend
I fell for her though I had no such intentions

She is my love and a wonderful dream
I cannot imagine a life without her
She is my life's supporting beam
So I will support her even if my thoughts differ

I wanna be with her all my life
I know she will be mine forever
I wanna make her my dream wife
And live like this ever and ever!

Valentine's Day

It was the Valentine's day
As I was a lover, I was gay
My love had called me up early
But I did not tell I love her truly

She prolonged her call just to hear that word
But for that word I sang like a bird
Impatience prevailed in her voice
And she cut the call finding no choice

I did call her back with a smile
She answered 'WHAT?' in her own dejected style
I replied she would not hear that word today
As this day will not come everyday

She was overjoyed when my gift arrived at her door
I just wanted to surprise nothing more
All my word lovely words were in it
And a date later made everything fit!

Seasonal Reckoning

Cold brings chills down my spine
I shiver making it hard to dine
I makes me think "Was I cold?"
I want to know whom I wronged and was untold

Heat warms my only heart
I know I can make a new start
I hope I'm forgiven
And I want to make things even

Downpour make everything wet
It shows everything cannot be set
Tells me to embrace change
Forget grief and get merry in exchange

Still do you want to be his/her girlfriend/boyfriend?

Being in and out of a relationship I realised how confusing and complex it can be with an opposite sex. A small change in the relationship status can bring about tremendous results and consiquenses. I want to share some of my insights regarding it with a help of a small story.

Like in every story there was a boy and there was a girl. They considered each as their best friends. They used to do many things like study, eat and enjoy together. They enjoyed each others company very much. When one was busy the other would not disturb. There were also times they could not speak or meet each other consistently but later when they did meet, the environment between was still the same. They would also eye other people, sometime flirt with them and it did not matter. While the relationship was going so well, a small idea came into boy's mind which is later discussed with his best friend. The boy's idea was that why don't we be girlfriend and boyfriend than just being friends? Afterall they were doing many things together and enjoyed each others company! Girl took some time and finally agreed.

The excitement of entering into a new phase of a relationship masked away those cruel truths which gradually came to light. Though the rules of how a boyfriend and girlfriend should be is never written or told, its been followed by the generation. Some rules are like they should meet daily and go out, there must not be a day when they did not speak to each other, they must not show interest in any other people other than their boyfriend or girlfriend etc. These two free birds had a hard time complying to these rules and making their relationship work though these rules were insisted by them on themselves. Now, even petty things like sending a good morning text message mattered. Girl needed surprises from her boy for every occasion she can possibly name, she needed him to answer all her silly dilemmas, she needed him to assist her by leaving his job in the midsts and so on. Boy was very strict about her speaking to other guys, he needed her to wear clothes approved by him, he needed some time alone in a day and many more. The boy's original thought of they becoming girlfriend and boyfriend was to have more closure with his girl. Girl agreed to it because she felt it would be good for her as she knows him well. But it never went as they both thought which is not a surprise for us who have seen far more worse cases. Later what happened is quite common I guess. They broke after their relationship reached to that unrepairable state where the both them swore they never even see each other's face if they can help it.

So don't you think being as just friends was better in their case?

My Search

Walked on a deserted road
Searching for something that was not there
So lost due to work load
While thinking my life was not fair

Lethargy did not stop my search
My mind was not mine anymore
Though I had paid countless austerties to church
This time it really needed a score

Bright light ended my long quest
My eyes were closed and arms were open
When I totally merged into its crest
Which could happen only once in one life!